No matter where you go, there you are.

During those days, I thought I was right

And when you would beg I put up a fight

I knew that I loved you, but it got complicated

During that time it was you that I hated

How could you love me, but put me through that pain?

I swore to myself there was something to gain

My days felt like years without you by my side

Once I was alone, I fell down and cried

You broke my heart; I thought you would care

But I didn’t see the truth standing right there

I remember you staring, as I released all my anger

My tone was so different like I was a stranger

I paused for a second, I thought I would cry

And for a moment, I thought, I was going to die

You gave me your rant and continuous chide 

I had no doubt, that my words wouldn’t slide

So I kept on, I argued, I needed to know

Whether or not you would let me go

While you were yelling, I put up a fight

With someone, who clearly, thought he was right

There were two of you then, screaming in my face

Putting me down, calling me a disgrace

Finally you had it, your face had turned red

Your eyes had grown large. Your face I did dread.

You screamed at me to look, but I looked away

You wouldn’t stop screaming; my world had turned grey

As I stood there shaking and cowering on the wall

There was only one thing I wanted at all

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I had a choice, and I chose you

my choice kept me strong, after all that we’ve been through.

I had a fear, it inched closer every day

and now it’s here, I can’t stand to walk away.

I thought that I loved you, now I know

it’s there deep inside us, but why wont it show?

you said you were scared, so was I

but I was never prepared, to see you cry.

I could try to live wihout you

but I would never be the same.

after all the things we went through

I think we were both to blame. 

when I try to keep on going

I can’t help but turn around

and I know it’s not showing,

but you’re the one I can’t live without. 

are you really gone? never thought that you could actually leave.

when you are my air, it’s taken away, I don’t have more breathe.

thought we needed time but we were all past it

if I had one wish, I wish we could’ve lasted.

but I guess I, wasted my time

spending all of it focused on nothing but you.

and I know why, I need you mine

you’re on my mind, time and time and time again

I can’t handle us just being friends

I could try to live wihout you

but I would never be the same.

after all the things we went through

I think we were both to blame. 

when I try to keep on going

I can’t help but turn around

and I know it’s not showing,

but you’re the one I can’t live without.

I’ve always tried to be the best I can be.

that’s the only thing I want you to see.

so I keep on trying.

I’ve always hoped I’d find someone like you.

someone I can be completely honest to.

but I’ve kept on lying.

I’ve always prayed for a better day.

and all I’ve done is push you away.

so I keep on praying.

I’ve always concluded I’d push you too far. 

you’d run away, and stay right where you are.

but you are still staying.

I’ve always thrived to give respect.

and I stay selfish, got myself to protect.

so I keep on striving.

I’ve always wanted to show you my heart.

let you see me, give you a part.

but I’m still depriving. 

I’ve always seen you in a different light. 

and now it’s dark; I don’t want to fight.

so I keep my eyes open.

I’ve always said things with hurt in between.

not wanting to say, not wanting to mean.

but they’re still spoken.

I’ve always wished I’d know first hand.

how to listen, how to understand.

so I keep on wishing.

I’ve always needed you to know.

that I could never, ever let you go.

but I’m still missing.

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What if I said goodbye
For the last time
Forgetting to look in your eye
And what if you went to run an errand
An innocent errand
And I was too busy to kiss you goodbye?
To hug you one last time?
If I ever forgot to say ‘I love you’
If our last kiss was something quick
And something I just rushed on through
Would I never forgive myself?